April 26, 2005

• Topic: help wanted

  
  

  OK…so i wake up this morning, and receive a message from an old friend…turned new good friend again.  Anyways…he was reading my blog, as he does, and offered me advice about my ideas.  Yesturday…I spoke w/ my sis, and she helped me realize that I need to slow down about all my ideas, since they’re all over the place and haven’t really gotten me anywhere. 

  
  

  So…i’ve realized two things.  First…I need to seriously think about being in the right place, surrounded by the right people, and second, I realized that in NYC alone I have the bulk of my close family and friends.

  
  

  So, the reason I’ve titled this “help wanted,” is because for the next few days, I’m going to begin an all out assault looking for something interesting to do in NYC this summer, and possibly beyond.  To see if I can’t find all, or most of what I want from life, and also stick around w/ those who have an interest in me, and who I have an interest in them.

  
  

  For 1 year.  Maybe I’ll have dreams that I could be someone w/ a life resume of crazy travels, but maybe I’ll be someone w/ a life resume of great friends and experiences in NYC.  I don’t know…but, if I can make it there, I can make it anywhere, I think is the saying.  And…last time I was here, when I found that random funky art gallery, the woman there commented to me, “NYC is a country of its own.”

  
  

  My sis read from a book, “Be What You Are” and gave me a Bryers-Miggs type personality test.  I wasn’t shocked by the results, but by how dead on they were.  Enjoys being creative, idealistic, but sometimes too idealistic or unrealistic about big projects.  Writing, education, helping people reach their potential were all job descriptions.  So…I’m not afraid that I’ve been heading in the wrong direction.

  
  

  I think one year in NYC would be a foreign experience for me.  First of all…the idea of it makes me nervous, just like travelling.  Second…tons of new culture and people to meet.  Even if it’s the outdoors I’m looking for, I can definately find those things if I look. 

  
  

  I think I have too many unresolved issues to necessarily go abroad also. 

  
  

  So…let me look.  I have the next week to seach the web, to go to NYC to meet people.  If the idea of teaching English in a foreign country has ever sounded interesting (it’s never been my top choice, but the idea of it has always been a good one), then why not look for a job w/ an Outward Bound high school…the closest thing I’ve found to my type of school.

  
  

  OK…if you can help w/ any of the following, please let me know:

  
  

  1) interesting grad programs…where I can get paid to help w/ research.  Fellowships, or graduate assistanceships. 

  
  

  2) writing opportunities…maybe a magazine I can get my foot into, someplace that has room for opinion articles.  I realize now I actually need to have my writing developed way beyond what it is, so it might be a menial job, but that might be ok too.

  
  

  3) interesting teaching jobs…well, as I said, Expeditionary Learning Outward Bound and NYC OB are places I should be looking into.

  
  

  4) other interesting jobs that make money…yes, at the end of the day, money matters.  I’m putting those idealistic notions aside, because, if I was in a foreign country, I’d be looking for any job I could find purely for financial reasons.  So…if I’m making NYC a “travel experience,” why not do the same?  Why not work a year on wall street, get rich…it’s just as arbitrary as picking grapes in France, right? 

  
  

   

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