August 23, 2004
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Topic: This just in
I posted about 5min. ago, then I got a call from the executive director of expeditionary learning Outward Bound, an organization that is creating public schools in New York and one in Denver that incorporate Outward Bound values of experiential education into their curriculum. I look at their website all the time and get excited by the potential I see!
So…I’ve got this problem where I get anxiety when I have a lot of thoughts, and I don’t really know where to start. I could never ask questions in class because of this problem, and even if I do try to speak up, I’m suddenly speaking but I’m not in control, and it really is the worst feeling in the world, especially knowing it’s ridiculous but being unable to control it. Anyways…I sort of froze on the phone, my heart rate picking up. I actually put the guy on hold, to catch my breath, and said maybe it’d be better if we meet in person. I slowly calmed down, and I was able to begin explaining what it is I’m hoping to achieve, and it was good to hear him listen. Anyways…I’m meeting him on Wed., undivided attention. So, now I’m working on outlining the things I want to explain and propose. Another funny thing happened, besides me freaking out on the phone. He asked what I looked like, and I describe myself, about 6 ft. short dark hair, and 23-years old, pretty young looking. His discription was pretty similar, and when he said he was 68, I was kind of surprised. For some reason, his age was calming to me. I can only imagine the experience this guy has that has led him to this position.
Anyways…back to the book. Can’t wait for this opportunity!
Comments (1)
Congrats! I know your anxiety. Not only do I find it hard to speak, but I also find it hard to write. There are just too many things to say, and then to have to say things in a way that makes sense to someone else. It can be very overwhelming at times.