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  • Topic: Progress Report


    A few minor developments in a few minor areas:


    1) Howard, a friend I met at the NYC travler’s meet-up group, and myself, have been discussing growing the group a bit.  We’re trying to come up w/ a way to create more opportunities for people in NYC to, well….meet-up.  We’re considering organizing a pub-crawl, with a couple of different themes including a history NYC pub crawl or a cultural/ethnic pub crawl.  Another idea is to organize a meet-up about the concept of the meet-up and the idea of building community and bringing together a wide cross-section of people.


    2) Now that I’m approaching 6mos. with my job (a ridiclous achievement in itself, for me anyways), I decided to send out a “state of the union” type e-mail for a couple of people.  So far, the responses have been quite positive.  I had a list of criticisms and suggestions, and at the organizations last conference, apparently a lot of people agreed, and they’re moving it to their national conference which will be going on over New Year’s.  There’s need for changes all over the planet, so I’m content to hopefully be able to make some kind of a positive change where I am now, while at the same time knowing that nothing might happen beyond talk and that at the end of the day, I get paid to manage the office.


    3) Channukah was festive.  Ate well last night, bagels, tuna, lox, potato lattkes and apple sauce, baked ziti and lasagna.  My uncle had a chocolate fondu fountain for dipping fruit in for dessert.  Plus the exchanging of gifts, better known in my family as “trickle down economics,” my grandfather gives checks to his children, and the uncles/aunts give checks to the grandkids. 


    4) I love my job, and I’m not afraid to say it.  Some people love their jobs because they love what they’re doing.  Some people love their jobs because they feel they’re making a difference in the lives of others.  Some people love their jobs because they feel challenged, and some because they get paid a lot.  I might be unlike many people in that I love my job because I have little to do and little responsibility in doing it.  Although I learned last Fri. when I was out of the office that I’m the only person who knows how to ship things w/ DHL, or how to call Staples to order office supplies, by-and-large, I get away with having to do very little substantial work…and I’ve learned to embrace that.  It allows me to read online all day as I know many other people do, and it allows me to write which I love, and it allows me to think about what kind of work I’ll do next, what is it that I would trade this relatively stress job for?  The current picture looks like fall/winter ’06 -spring ’07 abroad, with the potential for fall ’07 to be a mentor (not a teacher) at a Big Picture Company school.  The school’s founder and the way it’s run is the closest thing to what I’ve dreamed a school should be like, and in the next couple of months I’m hoping to visit and write about how the practice meets the theory.


    3 days till Chicago for New Year’s……


    -can

  • Topic: Quick holiday post, and of course a quick thought on education


    I want to quickly share a though on education, brough about from a comment a friend of mine asked.  “Why wait 5-10yrs. to try to change things?”


    I’ve come to accept that change is a long-term thing that requires people on your side, not just good ideas in your head.  I believe that in order to get the ideas in my head to translate into something practical, I need both numbers and close and influential people on my side.  If I continue on the path I’m on, which may or may not happen depending on how life decides to unfold, I might hope to have such a network of allies in 5-10yrs. time.  In other words, I need to build my credibility.


    Also, I have come to adjust my life priorities.  As far as long-term goals goes, having an influence on education is up there.  For the short-term, the upcoming days, weeks, and months, there are other pressing things.  I’m continuing to get in order my social life, family life, professional life, personal life, etc.  So…I don’t have the time to do what I did a year ago and dedicate myself 100% to preaching the message, nor do I believe that preaching the message is productive. 


    Which is another reason I’ve given myself 5-10 yrs. for this, to sharpen my message.  I recently picked up 6 books on education (which I look forward to posting about on this site in the upcoming months, and includes one book about the mental health crisis in higher education, another by Alfie Kohn about testing, one by Paolo Fiere about the relationship between education and poverty in developing countries, another by Jonathan Kozol about inequities in public schooling, a history of higher ed., and lastly Dennis Littky’s book about his new brand of schools, the Big Picture Company.), and am trying to focus on educating myself on every issue under-the-sun.  If I want to preach a message, I need to be an expert on that message…and again, I need to figure out exactly what that message is, and what exactly i want to accomplish???  I need to read all the issues, talk to a wide-range of people, and know the various perspectives and experts already out there.  No need to spend my life trying to build a wheel again.


    In actuality…this goal isn’t a 5-10yr. goal, but a lifetime goal.  This is something I will be dedicating probably my whole life to, to some extent.  For me personally, it’s really less about affecting the world, than it is affecting my own world.  By this I mean, I enjoy learning and discussing this issue, and will pursue it as long as it interests me.  When I feel myself banging my head against the wall, I’ll do the only thing I know to do in that situation, which is to stop banging.  I will not lose my sanity over education, because, part of my message is to be mentally healthy, to enjoy life, to have fun…so if I am going to be an activist for those things, I need to take it easy as well.  I was reading an article that mentioned how Plato believed leisure to be the key to a better democracy and a better society.  So, I feel as though I need to be leisurely aggressive about making people aware of educational and lifestyle issues that I believe plague too many people.


    And…as far as getting the word out there, I do intend to rely heavily on the internet.  Just yesturday CT, who comments often on my site, purchased a copy of my book College Daze, and another blogger, lionne, linked me to several other people who might be interested in exchanging thoughts.  So…certainly the internet will play a large role.  Instead of trying to sell a million copies of a book, I am thinking along the lines of writing something that might be read and forwarded to a million people around the world.  And just as the shortage of relevant books in Barnes & Nobles inspired me to write what I wrote, the crappy chain-letters I get e-mailed, even the few well-intentioned ones, are further proof that if thought out properly, something large can be achieved.


    On a closing note…just got back home from my first Christmas-eve dinner, which happened to be an Italian style dinner.  Massive amounts of fish, wine, pasta, and desserts.  I believe that as people allow themselves to see religion for what it really is or what it is really intended to be, an excuse to eat, to celebrate, and to build community, we allow ourselves to experience so much more.  Saying Merry Christmas no longer means anything different than saying Happy Birthday, Happy Channukah, Happy New Year, or Happy Let’s Just Get Together and Have a Good Time Day!!!  Am I planning on keeping my traditions and passing them down to my children?  I would like to.  But I am also equally interested in partaking in the traditions of others, and my experience tonight was a highly enjoyable one!


    And here’s a thought that’s really not worth losing sleep over, but what if it was Christmas 365-days a year?  What if every night you had dinner w/ 20 people, and the meal was a feast, and everyone was merry and friendly to each other?  What if we paid attention to the poor, and sang songs, and felt warm-and-fuzzy more often than this 1-week?  Well..just because our national leaders aren’t addressing these questions, doesn’t mean that we all can’t in our own lives.


    Food coma…time for bed.


    -dan


    p.s. is it strange that after a few drinks on Fri. afternoon, and going to Barnes & Nobles to relieve myself, I binge-spent money on education books?


    p.p.s. What’s up w/ the Giants?  They had a chance to clinch the NFC East today, and now if they lose on the raod in Oakland on New Year’s eve, they could miss out on the playoffs all together.  Get it together Big Blue!!!

  • Topic: Bloody Hands


    I went for a morning run, doing about 4-5 miles.  My mind was set to do the whole run, so I didn’t have to do battle w/ the usual “I’m tired, let’s walk,” I was set on just moving the whole time.  So…my mind began to wander, and it thought about how I might leave a mark on the world, as other idealists have.


    I feel as though my efforts last year to promote my book College Daze, and to promote my ideas for revolutionizing higher education, were pre-mature.  I was like a high school basebally player put up to bat against the likes of Roger Clemens.  I surprised myself by making contact a few times, but in the end, I went down swinging.


    At the time, I was both proud and disappointed.  I had found a community of people hungry for change…students, professors, deans, alumni, community members, and others.  I was a bit blinded by the goal of a complete academic shut-down, a campus wide strike of sorts, followed by negotiations that would lead to a new learning environment, to the point that after I moved on following the 2-3 months I spent on the St. Louis campus, I failed to appreciate the base of supporters I had built.


    Turn now, a year later, in NYC.  I have come to recognize my blind passion of last year, and how that passion nearly drove me mad, and certainly failed to reach my desired goals.  However, I still have some of those general goals in site, to be a major league influence, not simply a fan on the sidelines screaming “You guys stink!”  I do intend to get out there and show people that there is a way we can all play this game better.


    So…I was running on started thinking about an idea Dara told me when she was helping me to edit College Daze.  She told me to write more of a “manifesto,” something short, that could be quickly and easily digested, and quickly and easily distributed amongst people.  I also spoke w/ someone who works w/ John Taylor Gotto (one of the most outspoken school critics alive today), who suggested I simply print up copies of my writings and distribute them.  Don’t try to get a book published or anything else that might be costly…do it on the cheap, and that way you can be creative, make a scene, and get your word out in a bigger way than trying to have people pay for books.


    Well, my mind was playing things through, and I was still running along my quiet suburban Long Island town.  Next thing I know, my shoulder is planted in the concret.  My right foot had snagged a piece of raised tar and I had stumbled.  Luckily, my biologically wired instincts kicked in and my hands hit the ground first (had it been 10 degrees instead of 30, I’d have been wearing gloves, oh well).  I came up w/ 2 nice bloody palms, or at least, the base part of the hand. 


    I stood for a while, more in shock then pain.  The run had been going well, and I wanted to continue, so I decided to run to the nearby deli, where I got some napkins, and the woman at the counter got me some water and ice.  I cleaned up, and finished my run.  Back at home, I tried my best to doctor myself, to look objectively at my wounds, to lightly wash them and bandage them.  To try to understand the nature of the pain, rather than turn around and flinch.


    So…now I have 2 wounded hands as a reminder of this morning’s run, but also, a newly inspired idea.  In 5-10 yrs. time, I hope to put together a revolutionary pamphlet to give out to 1000s of high school students, the content of which will be suitable to teens and their parents.  I want this thing to spread like wildfire, like so many other random things manage to spread.  I want this to gain attention from all sorts of media, and all sorts of professionals.  And, the goal won’t necessarily be a passionate revolution, but, just as Bono has done w/ global poverty, to raise awareness in a way that requires the type of push that I want to bring…..hands hurt, will more write later.


    -dan

  • Topic: The strike, and the meetup.com, and serenity now!


    I ended up not taking the Long Island Rail Road home last night, but will be on it today after work.  I’ve just seen some of the pictures and read the reports, and it looks like it was a friggin’ madhouse.  Penn Station was overflowing with people, and their were massive waits for trains.  I’m hoping to get out a bit early and maybe beat some of that rush…definately looking forward to reading more about how this is going to turn out.


    Let me turn quickly to “serenity now,” the famous Seinfeld quote of Frank Costanza, his way of calming himself down.


    I need calm in my life…just a little bit of calm everyday.  Time alone.  Time to recognize that I have time, time to think, time to simply be along, time to not worry about work, my future, or anything or anyone.  Time to get a better hold of time.  Time to slow down time, which tends to go quickly in a day. 


    I’m working on creating a daily routine that could be applied throughout my lifetime, regardless of where and when I am.  A routine with built in flexibility.  Along with healthy eating and exercise, I’m hoping to build in time for calm.  Might have to shave a few minutes from sleeping, or simply be more efficient with my time throughout the day, but having calm time I think is something I need these days.


    I went to my 2nd meet-up event last night, for the NYC travelers group.  It’s possibly the most ideal way to meet people, and have a good night of socializing.  The topic of travel certainly came up, but that’s essentially the ice breaker that allowed 10-or-so strangers to just start having free-flowing conversations.  They have meet-ups for all sorts of things, and I’m hoping to start making that part of my monthly routine.


    I feel like being a bit creative now…so bear w/ me here, as I end this post with some stream of conscious-type writing:


    Life is good
    and not good
    Life is
    It is envigorating
    and dull
    it is
    Life is intense
    and overwhelming
    and calm
    this life
    This life is lonely
    and boring
    and life is
    life is not these things
    Life is full of entertainment
    and people
    and community
    life is
    It is technology
    and nautre
    Sleep and awake
    What is life?
    It is not life
    It is
    It is now
    and yesturday
    and odds are tomorrow it will be as well
    It hurts
    and stings
    this life
    and terrorizes my heart
    and our hearts
    Life is what we try to escape
    and life what we try to embrace
    Because life is
    life is
    life is
    Life is beauty
    and creativity
    and spontaneous
    This life
    It is nothing
    Nothing we can control
    Nothing that matters
    It is life
    It is what is written
    and not
    spoken
    heard
    and muted
    seen
    and covered
    blind from our eyes
    Life
    Life is
    Life are these words
    and dark
    beyond our comprehension

    To life, to life
    L’Chaim
    L’Chaim, L’Chaim
    To life

  • Topic: Strike, work, Bolivia, sociology…



    • from discussions w/ a few people, it seems the NYC transit strike is going to have some interesting effects.  For me personally, I take the Long Island Rail Road to work, so I’m really in no way effected.  For poor people who generally rely on public transportation, they are bound to suffer, as they will be forced to chalk up money for cabs or private buses.  For the transit union, those in charge are likely to be jailed for violating the Taylor Laws which make a strike such as this one illegal, and for the general workers, they are looking at fines as well as losing 2-days pay for every day they strike.  For the union in general, they will possibly be losing the benfit of having the MTA collect union dues through workers pay checks, therefore requiring individual workers to write checks to the union which will make it difficultfor the union to collect their dues.  How long will the strike last, what sort of deal will be reached, those things we’ll have to wait and see.

    • Bolivia has a new President, the socialist leader Evo Morales.  He is the first indiginous Indian President of Bolivia, and has a background as a miner and a coca-leaf farmer.  There a a few issues surrounding his victory.  First, is the issue of the coca-leaf industry.  In Bolivia, the leaf is traditionally used for teas and to be chewed on, and Morales has no intention of eliminating the industry.  The US is concerned because the leaf is used for making cocaine, to which some Bolivians respond, “we are not responsible for the US cocaine problem.  The US is more interested w/ having a military presence here than eliminating cocaine.”   Besides coca leaves, the big issue for Morales is his intention to nationalize natural gas, which is currently held by many foreign corporations.  By nationalizing gas, Morales hopes to use the profits to help poor Bolivians, rather than watching the profits go towards CEOs and shareholders abroad.  Venezuela’s President Hugo Chavez is in the midst of telling ExxonMobil to either become a partial-partner w/ Venezuela’s nationalized gas and oil, or to get out, because he has the interest of his people ahead of just making profits.

    • Headlines are talking about George Bush’s approval ratings, and to be honest, our society abuses these polls for no good.  First of all, whatever sample of people are being polled is never going to be a true-cross section, and more importantly, poll numbers mean nothing compared to what real people have to say.  And…poll numbers simply spike and drop according to the weather of the day, and fail to capture the general mood of a country.  I’ll be honest though, I’m more upset with having an incoherant, arrogant, ignorant, close-minded, naiive president, than I am with most of his policies.  I honestly don’t follow every policy closely.  For example, the headlines now are about “illegal” wire-tapping.  Like every issue, people immediately jump into their ideological camps…but, without having read deep into the article, I can’t see on the surface why this is such a huge problem, or why the problem can’t be ameliorated through simple discussion.  I see how the problem is when innocent people get sent into prisons, locked up, tortured, etc. but I think the issue of “I don’t want the gov’t invading my privacy,” is a bit extreme.  First of all, I have nothing to hide, I’ve done nothing wrong, so the law bothers me not one bit.  And while I think it’s silly when the FBI is snooping around in people’s book clubs, what they’re looking for are people who might be physical threats to other people.  You can have all the radical views you want, but I support the gov’t tapping people’s phone calls if it means finding out about a possible subway bombing in the future.

    • I just spoke to a co-worker who works down in Austin, Tx.  She just bought a 1br house, a one-story w/ a basement.  Price….about $70,000!!!!  Now that I’m getting comfortable in the NY area, I’m starting to accept the fact that when I do buy something, a condo, a house, whatever, it’ll likely be $300,000+ for whatever it is I buy.  And this won’t be happening for several years.  But it’s really something to think about, a decision up there with choosing a college.  Where do I want to live, what kind of home, what price range, what neighborhood, what city???  How long do I live at home, how long do I rent, at what point to I buy, should I wait till I’m married???  Although stressful, I have to say I enjoy the responsibility and freedom to make this decision, and although I’m a bit lost in the way I was lost choosing a college, I at least know that I’m lost, and can start to do the research…out of curiosity, has anyone been around Princeton, NJ.  Would be interesting to be near a college campus for sure…




  • Topic: A-ha…the meaning of life!!!


    I remember having a deep conversation about life w/ a couple of co-worked when I worked for Outward Bound in S. Africa.  When I went to bed, my mind was still racing, and after a big I woke up, sat-up, and paused…my heart racing.  I thought I had figured out the answer to our hour long conversation. 


    My roommates heared me sit up and I actually said, “I got it!!!!”  The asked, “What’d you get?” and I said, “I figured out the meaning of life…but I can’t remember what it is…”


    Since then, I’ve come to some new conclusions, which will continue to change over time.  I rented a Ben Harper DVD this weekend, and despite his music often bordering on political, he said, “I have no desire to change the world…the world will always be changing until the day the world ends.”  Sure, we should try to better the world, but to realize there is no objective end, except if the time comes when human beings end up like dinosaurs (I think i need to watch Planet of the Apes again…)


    Anyways…so I’ve figured out life is short and meaningless (not to say that there isn’t meaning to be drawn out of life).  I believe the mind and human spirit transcend science, but I also believe that we are no different from any other animal, in that all we can do is best fill our days.


    And, that’s where the meaning of life lies.  How do we best fill our days?


    I’ve begun to answer that question, and I feel compelled to further fill my days by sharing what it is I have observed regarding this question.


    1) We are best served by viewing life as entertainment.  Most of us do this already.  We watch movies, read books, play games, travel…basically everything that we do for fun, we do in order to be entertained.  The trick, that I believe I’ve discovered and I’m still mulling over and working on putting into practice, is how to make “non-fun things” to be entertaining?  How to make academic things entertaining?  How to make a subway ride entertaining?  How to make the experience of being an office-drone entertaining?  How to look at conflict and sadness, and see the entertainment in it.


    2) We are best served by filling our days in ways that lead to physical and mental health.  When we are healthy physically, we tend to be healthier mentally, and there are many other side-effects, including increased life expectancy.  Physical health comes simply from eating well, getting adequate exercise, and avoiding things that are known to be harmful to the human body, or, to do those things in moderation.  If risking your physical health through drinking, smoking, or high-risk sports means increasing your mental health, than you need to do a personal cost-benefit type analysis to see if it’s worth the physical risks.


    Mental health is tricker, and not always in a person’s control.  I’ve discussed this topic before, and don’t want to focus too much on it now.


    So…those are my initial thoughts on the meaning of life.


    In other news (in the news), it seems some small amount of tone-shifting has occurred in the world.  The World Trade Organization meetings in Hong Kong have just about come to a concensus on how to make the global economic system work to help developing countries.  This includes developed nations such as those in Europe and the US, ending gov’t subsidies that they give to their own farmers by the year 2013 (I believe was the year).  While I have not read about this extensively, this appears to be a sign of governments moving in the general direction of what poor countries need to improve their financial situations, as well as the general direction of what angry protestors have been calling for.  Unless I’m missing something major, it appears that those w/ money and power do in fact possess benevolent bones in their body.


    And…while I haven’t read the whole speech, Pres. Bush admitted mistakes last night.  He made his first tv speach about the war since it began, and apparently made some effort to acknowledge critics.  That’s a huge step for this president, who has not been willing or able to make a connection w/ the majority of the world and basically w/ an extremely high number of Americans. 


     I mean…how hard should it be for one of the most influential people in the world to get on tv and explain things, and to be real about how people feel about his words and decisions???  All we’re asking for is for the man to be a human being, and not just a puppet reciting the same words and phrases every day…at least for starters.


    And, at the end of the day, while the Pres. is an important person, he is not the only person in the world…far from it.  I do think that too many people look to the gov’t to address social issues, and as history has shown, social issues rarely get decided by the gov’t.  The reason we have an 8hr. work day, the reason we have min. wage laws, the reason troops got pulled out of Vietnam, the reason women gained the right to vote, the reason that the environment is even on the national agenda, is the results of everyday people speaking out and doing something.


    Is there a problems of poverty in America?  Is there a problem w/ welfare, w/ subsidized housing, with attitudes and treatment of the poor?  We can discuss all those things…but I’ve recently befriended a man, named Bob, who spends his days on the streets asking for money.  And…despite his financial troubles, I no longer see this person as a begger, I see him simply as Bob, a man from N. Carolina, who has a wife Sylvia who sits on a nearby corner, and a dog named Abby.  A man who is friendly, who has intelligent thoughts about politics and society, who has worked but lost his job due to health reasons, and who doesn’t look for much from the world.  I was impressed to see people had left packages w/ chicken, pasta, all sorts of things.  Bob actually lives in Section 8 subsidized housing in the Bronx, but hasn’t been able to collect any kind of social security or welfare, and spends his days on 34th st. trying to scrounge up money to pay his $200 rent.  He’s too sick to work, and I’m not quite sure how his numerous doctor bills get paid.  I guess the point of this is to realize that beneath the politics and economics of poverty, are regular people, and if we want to help them, we can begin by accepting them as so.  (There was a woman on the train who freaked out at a guy asking for money, screaming at him to get off drugs, get a job, and threatening to call the cops because it’s apparently illegal to panhandle on the subways…the problems we face have as much to do w/ our sociology as our politics, but regarding this woman, who knows…maybe she was mugged by a homeless person.)


    -dan


     


     

  • Topic: An interview that might affect how you raise your kids


    Last night, I was invited to an open house for an org. called AERO (alternative education resource org.).  We met in a small house in Roslyn, Long Island, home of the orgnaization’s founder, Jerry Mintz.  It took me a few min. to find the house, and once I came I was quickly ushered into the kitchen, where a few other people were listening to the radio, 99.5FM.  The phone rang, and Jerry was suddenly on the radio being interviewed about education!  And so an interesting night began.


    I discoverd this organization after I wrote an article in my school paper last year called “The Education Revolution,” and then upon doing a google search found this org. and their website www.educationrevolution.org  I went to their annual conference this summer, deciding that it would be my last time thinking radically about education.  That decision, it turns out, has planted a seed that is now starting to grow in a few directions.


    Jerry is pretty big in the alternative education movement, and we watched him on the Hannerty & Colmes program on Fox News, where he managed to forge some common ground with both the conservative and the liberal.


    So…I found myself in the heart of the education movement, and it was naturally a good place to be.  There’s now several faces familiar to me, and in the next few months this should lead to me learning a bit more about alternative education, and hopefully getting to visit certain schools in action.


    The following interview is from a school called the Sudbury School which is in Massachussetts.  The philosophy is that of a “democratic school” a school where the kids decide how the school should be run.  There are no classes, tests, or grades.  There are no teachers, rather, adults who act as role models.  Teaching and learning are done by all, and done according to the interests of individuals.


    The following interview reminded me that I would like to do everything in my power to ensure my kids are not subjected to the same kind of education that I was.  It was also inspiring for me to consider pursuing work in this type of school, where as a teacher you’re not constricted either by the normal classroom walls.


    Give yourself a few minutes and enjoy…


    http://www.sudval.org/01_abou_09.html

  • Topic: why learn?


    Isn’t it strange how the idea of “being intellectual” and “thinking” are typically earmarked for our school years only…and as it happens for most people, school years are the age when young people thrive off of being anti-intellectual and mentally lazy?  I think the true meaning of being a life-time learner is exactly what we’re doing here on this site, but most people fail to realize the benefits.  Whatever future jobs or relationships you encounter, you’re sure to benefit from both the knew knowledge you acquire, in addition to the ability to communicate and relate to people more on a larger variety of topics. 


    A month ago I had no idea what globalizatoin meant, or at least, I had my own created idea that I would likely have used to get at least a B on a college paper at the prestigious Washington University in St. Louis:


    “Globalization is the idea of things being more global.  Globalization is good, because it is good for the world to be more connected so we can better understand each other.  If things were not globalizaed, we would be more isolated and distrustful, and this could lead to misunderstandings, and even war.  Therefore, I conclude that globalization is good.”


    Yes…if there’s two things I learned from school, it would be: 


    1) I know how to bullshit and work the system in my favor,


    2) I didn’t really learn much from my bullshit or about how the system actually works. 


    If a term like globalization was important, like capitalism, or socialism, I never got beneath the words to start reading how those “academic” sounding words, (words which don’t come up in natural everyday conversation w/ my friends and family) are just “tools” to understand things that happen day to day.


    I think that’s something I want to explore further.  Amongst other things, learning is the process of acquiring the tools to better understand the world.  This is beneficial for people of any age, 5-105, because understanding the world allows people to make decisions in their own lives that will allow them to better achieve the life that they are uniquely attracted to. 


    As I’ve been thinking more about the mind, I’ve been thinking about the “tricks” the mind plays on us.  For example, when making a decision, it sometimes “seems” as though there are other people besides ourselves in our brain telling us what to think.  As I’ve just finished a book about a drug addict, I got a glimpse into their minds, “Should I smoke crack, or should I not…I need the crack, rather…you need the crack…I’m your addiction…I’m stronger than you…no….I need to be strong, you can’t tell me what to do…I know you’ll only hurt me in the end.”


    Inner monologue…or dialogue…or plurolog (if there’s many voices).  We all have it.  It’s what makes us human.  It’s what drives our everything.  You even have dialogue between mind and body:


    ex) Stand up.  Sit down.  Smile.  Punch the keys on the keyboard.  Say hello.  Order a bagel. 


    and the body communicates back.


    “gurrgle…gurgle…gurgle…” transltated = you had too much vodka last night


    “creak…creak…creak…” translated = you need to strengthen your muscles and keep them stretched and limber


    Does anyone have any thoughts on the realtionship between the mind and itself, as well as between the mind and body?  Why do you feel strong emotions in your chest?  Why do you feel nerves in your stomach?  Why do your limbs trevel out of fear?  Hint…there’s probably a scientific answer for all of these!


    -dan

  • Topic: The Revolution starts at Home


    It’s already 5:07pm, the last 2 days i’ve been alone in my office, alone w/ my thoughts, and the myriad of thoughts to be read on the internet.  I’ve taken a few extended breaks to my local Barnes & Nobles, where i’ve been lost in the myriad of thoughts and books there.  I have no hopes of making this post highly informative, but I simply need to write, as it is highly therapeutic, in fact, in the psychology section a woman wrote a book and coined a phrase which i cannot recall right now, but it was basically about the therapy of writing and journaling.  so…let the healing and feel-goodness begin, whatever is causing those soothing chemicals to ooze around my brain, i don’t know…but i like it!


    Dara made a comment on one of my recent posts about some of the thinking i’ve been writing.  she said i should go back to school, and to be honest, despite my loathing of the institution, i would love to simply spend time doing nothing but reading, and having peers review my thoughts.  Right now…i am at the pinnacle of my life in terms of learning desire.


    i spent time in the bookstore quckly glancing through the various aisles.  Found a book called “declining degrees” or something, written by some snooty academics about what’s wrong w/ higher education.  but, it made some good points for me to read, including the first chapter regarding how the media gives higher ed a free pass, instead focussing all of its efforts and stories on K-12, because that’s where the most money and interest lies.  the only focus on higher ed involves tuitions and admissions rates, which usually creates a skewed perspective in the minds of most families, resulting in the ridiuclous level of college hysteria.


    and while i can only choose one job at a time, and will have to settle on a general career path, i still feel like learning all the others.  Began reading investment for dummies, and started skimming through books on therapeutic and counseling techniques, understanding how people think, and the wide-range of disorder that the mind uses to punish a person in the prison of their own head.


    A Million Little Pieces, yup…still reading it.  Simply an amazing book on so many levels.  A vivid look into the mind of an addict, and what i found most striking was how his therapist, despite being good intentioned and providing support, is in no more knowledgable about the workings of the mind.  James Frey, the author/addict, is quite lucid and intelligent in his describing the illness, and there’s a scene where he rips into the religious/spiritual notion of the 12 Steps rehab program.  He has a scientific mind, yet he gets scolded by his therapist for being “too rational” and that he needs to simply accept certain things as truth. 


    Made me think of all the professionals in the world and the wide range of competencies.  How many Matt Damon’s are out there, brilliant minds who are content to do anything, as well as the George Bush’s, dull minds who rise to their position through connections.  it’s simply the nature of things.


    I am at peace w/ so many things in life right now, however, I believe life is about constantly growing, and therefore, this involves constantly changing, evolving, progressing, and pushing my own comfort zone.  In that sense, while I hope to remain in a healthy mindset throughout, I still need to find something big to shoot for in the next coming months.  Out of some psychological need which I will explore later, I want to accomplish something substantial.


    But…to quickly touch on the title of this post, the revolution begins at home, I want to say that it is quite likely that whatever it is I hope to go for and achieve, will not be of the usual nature.  It will not be an effort to affect change on the traditional grand scale, except that I want to apply it more to home, family, friends, the city I live in.  I want to create a revolution in lives that I can touch…to push my life and the lives of others.  To address the most local of communities, those that are beneath the radar of any media.  My office, home, town, the people I encounter on a day-to-day basis. 


    Need to catch a train…I can just smell the weekend!

  • Topic: Bullet-point thoughts



    • The movie the Graduate does an excellent job of demonstrating the multi-generational desire of young people to do something “different” with their lives.
    • It’s possible to grow close to people in a matter of days or weeks in ways in which you cannot grow close to certain people who you know for 20+ years.
    • The most important social issues of all time, are those that are necessary for improving the quality of life for the lot of mankind.  For the mostpart, happiness is derived from healthy interactions amongst people…therefor, one of the most useful ways to improve mankind is to work towards overcoming the intentional and unintentional barriers that create isolation amongst people.  When people can both identify with their unique groups, and also feel close with those of varying skin colors, cultural backgrounds, genders, sexual preferences, social and economic status, personalities, then the world will have moved towards a better place.  Addressing economic and political issues is just tinkering at the margins of the central issue that needs to be tinkered with, which is the psychology of human beings towards other human beings.
    • I love chocolate and peanut butter.
    • I think there is no room in this world for dreamers, because dreamers are not awake to reality.  This world, however, is ripe for idealists and pragmatists. 
    • “Everything that has ever been said, has been said…The problem is that nobody listens.  Out job, then, is to say things again, only better.  In order to say things better, we need to know how things were said in the past.” (recently obituary)
    • Although relatively speaking, the poor in developing countries have less than the poor in developed countries, the ultimate question worth addressing is what level of have’s and have-not’s is acceptable?  There will always be income gaps, and material gaps, but for both the rich and poor alike, what is it that everyone should be entitiled to? 
    • Are there truly injustices in the world that are black & white?  Is there anything in the world, outside of the health and mental well-being of our closest friends and family, that should keep us up at night?  Are there situations that are black & white where our fellow human beings are suffering while nations watch, or are some of these situations clouded by varying approaches on how to help those who are suffering? 
    • ex) are rich countries simply greedy and exploitive in their handling of global trade and int’l lending institutions such as the WTO…or are we quick to judge and failing to understand complexities, such as the loss of jobs to European sugar farmers in Ireland and Finland, and cotton farmer in the US, in our hopes to develop the economies of Africa? 
    • Is there a ‘SYSTEM OF CONTROL’ whereby we are kept ignorant and apathetic to the suffering of the poor and other misdeeds committed by governments, through education, the media, and the nature of our work?  Is it really the system that is controlling us, or have we just not listened to the voices of the past, so that we may do things smarter and more efficiently today?
    • Where in NYC can people assemble indoor and in public, where they can socialize and talk, and not have to pay a lot of money, or any money at all?
    • Are ambition and professional drive misguided?  If I can stay at my current job, where I work comfortable hours, have lots of free time to read, chat w/ friends, think, and make plans for my free time, with little stress and responsibility, a job that isn’t all that boring because of how i use my free time, is there any reason for me to feel shame for the work that I do, or to desire to want to achieve something more?
    • I haven’t had ice cream in a long time…and i’m thinking of cutting back on dairy somewhat for health reasons.  I wonder if there’s good organic chocolate peanut butter cookie dough ice cream?
    • out for ice cream…