August 15, 2006
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topic: bullet updates from tel aviv
-still don’t know what school/grade i’m teaching in this sept
-planning to grow fresh herbs for tea and cooking on my fire escape upon returning home
-after 2 weddings abroad, ready to make an effort to do singles-type events and generally put myself on the market
-not sure why yet, but Israel hasn’t had the “wow” factor on me, and i still have my sets on Buenos Aires or another Latin American country in 2 years, possibly follow in my friends’ footsteps and teach in an int’l school
-Goldstar = delicious Israeli beer
-espn podcasts = sports at my fingertips
-political musing = Hezbollah are dirty terrorists and it’s a shame Israel hasn’t wiped them out, but hopefully cease fire will last + American politics is so much about defeating the other party and arrogance, that you just laugh. I actually side w/ republicans in the debate about wire-tapping vs. ACLU protecting our privacy, but then to watch them say on tv that “democracy won” by catching terrorists in london, makes me laugh. I don’t need you to keep telling me security is important to you, and you value it, just do your job, both parties, it’s common sense you both care about it but have different approaches. but i don’t expect anything better.-shalom
Comments (3)
Mr and Ms Xanga 2006 – Coming Soon!
Thanks for the comment. I think my problem is that I’ve have too many limits, too many refined ideas of what my life is supposed to be that I get lost in that. I’m not all over the place with my ambitions – I’m in stuck in a few places with no way of thinking outside of them. But I’m not happy within them.
And in regards to London (I’m so jealous that you got to go…but I’ll be going soon enough), I did live there by myself. I spent many days without ever speaking to a friend. I spent whole breaks there by myself without anyone else to talk to. I lived there when I did my master’s. I realize it was for school, which is different then when you’re working, but i did truly experience london – not a study abroad London, but a residential London. I lived in a residential area. I rarely did touristy things (I think the entire year I only went to 2 museums and that was with my parents). My joy was not based on drinking and partying (if anything I realized that I’m not a party animal while I was in London), but based on finding solace in a stressful educational and social world. I don’t have that in NY – there is never a reprieve from the every day mundanities. It’s always motion – never motility.
I think the best way to describe it is that I can’t catch my breath here. But I did occasionally in London (and I did to some extent in Berkeley).
At any rate, your advice is totally appreciated. I’m trying to compile everyone’s snipets of advice into some sort of working mantra – I have no idea how to do that exactly, but it will happen soon, I’m sure!
Hear hear. I agree with you on the last point (except for the siding with Republicans.) I hope that you are enjoying your trip.