December 14, 2005

• Topic: The Revolution starts at Home

  
  

  It’s already 5:07pm, the last 2 days i’ve been alone in my office, alone w/ my thoughts, and the myriad of thoughts to be read on the internet.  I’ve taken a few extended breaks to my local Barnes & Nobles, where i’ve been lost in the myriad of thoughts and books there.  I have no hopes of making this post highly informative, but I simply need to write, as it is highly therapeutic, in fact, in the psychology section a woman wrote a book and coined a phrase which i cannot recall right now, but it was basically about the therapy of writing and journaling.  so…let the healing and feel-goodness begin, whatever is causing those soothing chemicals to ooze around my brain, i don’t know…but i like it!

  
  

  Dara made a comment on one of my recent posts about some of the thinking i’ve been writing.  she said i should go back to school, and to be honest, despite my loathing of the institution, i would love to simply spend time doing nothing but reading, and having peers review my thoughts.  Right now…i am at the pinnacle of my life in terms of learning desire.

  
  

  i spent time in the bookstore quckly glancing through the various aisles.  Found a book called “declining degrees” or something, written by some snooty academics about what’s wrong w/ higher education.  but, it made some good points for me to read, including the first chapter regarding how the media gives higher ed a free pass, instead focussing all of its efforts and stories on K-12, because that’s where the most money and interest lies.  the only focus on higher ed involves tuitions and admissions rates, which usually creates a skewed perspective in the minds of most families, resulting in the ridiuclous level of college hysteria.

  
  

  and while i can only choose one job at a time, and will have to settle on a general career path, i still feel like learning all the others.  Began reading investment for dummies, and started skimming through books on therapeutic and counseling techniques, understanding how people think, and the wide-range of disorder that the mind uses to punish a person in the prison of their own head.

  
  

  A Million Little Pieces, yup…still reading it.  Simply an amazing book on so many levels.  A vivid look into the mind of an addict, and what i found most striking was how his therapist, despite being good intentioned and providing support, is in no more knowledgable about the workings of the mind.  James Frey, the author/addict, is quite lucid and intelligent in his describing the illness, and there’s a scene where he rips into the religious/spiritual notion of the 12 Steps rehab program.  He has a scientific mind, yet he gets scolded by his therapist for being “too rational” and that he needs to simply accept certain things as truth. 

  
  

  Made me think of all the professionals in the world and the wide range of competencies.  How many Matt Damon’s are out there, brilliant minds who are content to do anything, as well as the George Bush’s, dull minds who rise to their position through connections.  it’s simply the nature of things.

  
  

  I am at peace w/ so many things in life right now, however, I believe life is about constantly growing, and therefore, this involves constantly changing, evolving, progressing, and pushing my own comfort zone.  In that sense, while I hope to remain in a healthy mindset throughout, I still need to find something big to shoot for in the next coming months.  Out of some psychological need which I will explore later, I want to accomplish something substantial.

  
  

  But…to quickly touch on the title of this post, the revolution begins at home, I want to say that it is quite likely that whatever it is I hope to go for and achieve, will not be of the usual nature.  It will not be an effort to affect change on the traditional grand scale, except that I want to apply it more to home, family, friends, the city I live in.  I want to create a revolution in lives that I can touch…to push my life and the lives of others.  To address the most local of communities, those that are beneath the radar of any media.  My office, home, town, the people I encounter on a day-to-day basis. 

  
  

  Need to catch a train…I can just smell the weekend!

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