Topic: Happy
Tonight I’m happy
So fuckin’ happy!
It’s 11:08pm
I’m tired and plan to get up and run at 5am
and i’m happy
Clarity is falling on me
and perhaps some luck
but i hope it’s more of clarity
because luck dries up
I have limits
Oh so many limits
And I accept them
And I have love
For my new career, despite its limits
For grad classes, despite theirs as well
What have I done, to spark this feeling?
For one, I am writing, and a poem at that,
and I like that
and I’m reading, slowly, but reading
and having conversations about children,
and school
and with roommates
and strangers on subway platforms
and eating tofu, eggplant, and pepper stirfry
with a black bean garlic sauce
There is so much I would like to do
but much of it I won’t
and that’s ok
it’s ok
IT’S OK!!!
because what’s more important is that right now i’m doing
something I enjoy
perhaps it is luck
Whatever it is, it’s nice
a nice feeling
and ultimately, it’s nothing
nothing has really happened, except my embracing nothing
not wanting anything more than who i am right now
