Month: May 2006

  • Topic: morning journal

    I fell asleep last night w/ a copy of the book “Vagabonding” on my lap. I’ve read the book before, it’s a guide of sorts for long-term world travel. When I first read it, I was in a stage of life where I was fairly directionless and I could jump on a plane at a moment’s notice.

    Now…I’m reading it with a bit of time on my hands, since I will be teaching in NYC the next two years. The author, Rolf Potts, points out that vagabonding, as he defines it, is not just the act of travel, but is a lifestyle as well. Not a social statement or moral highground, he says, but a private decision as to how one wishes to live. An attitude of sorts.

    Putting philosophy into practice is never easy, but I enjoy Potts’ philosophy. He discusses work in an ironic way, saying labor is the key to freedom. Given the choice between travels paid by one’s parents or other means, or travel that comes from money earned through ones labors, he chooses the latter. He compares this to a story Henry Throreau tells of a young boy who creates a pen knife by digging ore from the ground, and smelting it into a knife, versus a boy who is given a knife from his father. “Who is more likely to cut himself?” he asks.

    I do see reason to differ with Potts on some things he writes, and I think he might agree. He believes that short-term vacations are in some way less valuable than the type of long-term vagabonding he lives by. While I agree that there is certainly much to be gained by long-term travel, and by the type of travel that puts you more in touch with local cultures than your typical packaged vacation, he is clearly writing for a specific audience only. He acknowledges early that this type of travel is not for everyone, and so he can assume his readership is the type that is interested in taking time off, quitting their jobs, putting life on hold to explore abroad. Still, he attempts to make a moral judgement on life that I agree with, but clearly is not universal.

    Potts spent 2 years teaching in S. Korea as a means to fund some of his other travels. In two years, when I’m 27, I may embark on something similar, it’s hard to say right now where I’ll be and what I’ll want. But I now see the value in not vagabonding, at least not right now. It is a challenge in itself to find that vagabonding experience in one’s home, and I do grant that Potts does offer this as the vagabonding “gestation period,” as I wrote about a while ago.

    In other news, my mom is big into both cooking and gardening, and she recently made (with minor assistance on my part) this amazing poached salmon, using fresh dill and basil.  Basic strategy, put the fish in tin foil and place in a cooking tin.  Cover the fish w/ white zin about 1/4″ then add your herbs, lemon, pepper.  Fold up the foil so it creates a dome of sorts, and then fill the cooking tin w/ water.  Set to 350, cook for about 30min., and presto.  Serve chilled w/ a mustard/dill sauce if you like, which is a mixture of vinegar, mustard, and dill, and compliments the fish nicely.  On the side, a little baked potato and creamed spinach, with some asparagus baked with olive oil and pepper as well.  Oh my!

  • Well…back to feeling alive again. I’ve been trying to limit my alcohol intake, because I am trying to keep my head and body clearer these days. I am really not a hard alcohol/shot person, and as much fun as I had with the margharitas during cinco de mayo, I will be sticking to beer and wine, for the simple reason that it’s easier to keep track of what I’m drinking, and I enjoy the feel of drinking those considerably more.

    I have also been feeling a bit anxious about the next few months. The initial excitement of becoming a teacher has now turned into the practical logistics of leaving my job, filling my time off, getting in my paperwork, trying to plan a trip to London and Israel for weddings this Aug., and still gearing up for the summer.

    Tonight has turned into a perfect night of good music and time to organize a range of to-do lists. On the list are daily routines that I’m hoping to adhere to, simple things, making lunch in the evening for the next day, journal writing in the morning, cup of tea to wind down the night.

    I often overwhelm myself w/ thoughts of what could be done, but now I think I’ve simplified things to what I plan to get done. Part of this involves going to bed with a clear head, and waking up focussed for today. As next year throws teaching and grad school my way, I will have to rely on keeping things organized, balanced, and in a healthy routine more than ever.

    Will I make mistakes and mess up? Yes. Will I disappoint myself at times, sure. But if I can refocus, I can hopefully minimize things in life that unecessarily weigh my mind down.

  • I used poor judgement regarding alcohol this weekend. Broke some sacred rules I had set for myself.  My friend who smokes pot can add this onto the list of why alcohol is a bad drug. It’s really bugging me, and will leave it at that until I feel I have something positive to blog about.

  • Topic: NYC Teaching Fellows

    OK…I feel it’s now appropriate to announce that starting this fall, I will begin a new job as a NYC school teacher. This week I got word that I have been accepted to the NYC teaching fellows, a program that places first time teachers in high need schools. Over the next two years, I will have loads of content to write about as I find myself back in school, teaching special ed and taking graduate education classes in the summer and evenings during the school year.

    How do I feel about this? I feel excited. This despite the mixed reactions others have shared with me about the experience of working in some of these schools. While I appreciate stories and advice, this program will be good for me once it’s underway. It feels a bit scary, but only when my imagination gets the better of me.

    For example, I just watched Blackboard Jungle (while sitting in bed on my new Dell laptop, finally gaining the perks of the digital age at home). The movie takes place in the 1950s I believe, and depicts the dangers of working in a large public school. The behaviors of the students in the movie almost made me want to quit, it really might as well have been a prison movie, things were that out of control.

    But, life has treated me best when I’ve taken on things that scare me a bit. Plus, working with kids brings out a different Dan that doesn’t come out very often, and brings with it a heightened level of creativity, responsibility, childishness, dedication, and empathy.

    I am expecting to have a couple of weeks between my current job and summer training, and I am trying to plan something to do with that time. One idea is to do go off into the wilderness somewhere, or perhaps just some remote and quaint little town, where I can pretend live for a week like a local. I am hoping to spend my days reading, asking taking only books recommended to me by others as their favorites. Not sure where I want to go yet, could go way out east on Long Island, somewhere more New Englandy perhaps.

    Also, I’ve been asked by people if I plan on moving out of my home. I’ve had a few people, namely girls, comment how they don’t look to kindly on my living at home with my parents. The funny thing is, except for those comments, the experience has been nothing but a positive one for me. I know the moment I get my own place, I’ll grow immensely from the independence and added responsibility, but I have had a great opportunity to grow closer to my parents, and whatever trade-off that has meant on my social life, I think has been worth it. Plus, I’ve been able to put some dough away, which I’ll be needing as kayak season gets underway. So, to all you ladies out there who have beef w/ me living at home, well, when I’m having bbq’s at home this summer and cruising down to the beach after work, you’ll all have none of that!

    done and done

  • today i go awol, reading old movie quotes from matthew broderick movies. love work, love it

    p.s. the new photo is of a mega-babe from www.jewlicious.com  funny jews, trix are for rabbits.

    oh…and also had a good dose of Wayne World’s quotes:

    “Why is is that when you kill someone in battle, it’s called heroic, but when you kill someone in the heat of passion, it’s called murder?”

    “You know…in some countries marriage is punishment for shoplifting.”

  • Topic: Schooling


    It was about 2 years ago that I first began putting my thoughts about schooling/education into book form.  My perspective of time is still a bit silly, two years now appears a blink of the eye, but it was also just that, two years, 730 days, approximately 116800 hours (16hrs. awake a day)…shit, gotta grab lunch, will finish this piece later….


    …and i’m back.  What was I saying?  Oh yeah.  I was thinking about time and aging.  And tied to that, are thoughts about schooling and life beyond school.  I have come to recognize that the issue of education is not the end-all and be-all of life.  My life is simple, hopefully get another 80 years or so out of it, maybe not, but what I want my life to be filled with is joy, entertainment, friends, family, etc. 


    But school is the issue that I wish to develop knowlede of, and so I find myself reading Jonathan Kozol to begin to understand what the leading writers and speakers and leaders in education are thinking and saying.  I will begin to consume large quantities of their words and actions. 


    Psychologically/Philosophically, I believe that there is potential for improvement in our schools and society, however, I also believe that right now things are “perfect.”  I think, that to think that things now are not perfect, only leads to mental anguish.  The struggle, whether it is a struggle for racial equality, economic equality, work equality, etc. is in itself part of this perfect world in which we live right now.


    For even those who do not live in oppression of some sort, are still in a struggle against time, their lives finite.  Their lives full of minor turmoils that will never claim a struggle for the masses, for example, the turmoil of losing a loved one, or of a dispute with a family member. 


    But, I am an amateur philosopher, and so I will begin dedicating myself more extensively to what will hopefully be more sophisticated writing about education, tying together my own interest in the subject, with those who I aspire to be like.


    My friend who I just had lunch w/ is a law student here at Wash U., and he is an aspiring sports agent/attorney.  He stirred some thoughts in me as we discussed ambition, and drive.  “I don’t want to be normal,” he said.  We spoke about the need to surround yourself with the right kind of people, to serve as a measuring stick for you, and as motivation. 


    Conversations on campus with a couple of professors of mine, who I recall more for their friendship and guidance to me, than perhaps what I was meant to be learning, served as goalposts for me to see my progress.  I can see better what I have achieved, and what achievements in life lay ahead of me.  The contributions I can make, and that I want to make. 


    Tom. I fly home, after what has been a quick, but good week here in St. Louis.  Just the right amount and type of experiences to rejuvinate me a bit as I return to New York.  I exchange this the lazy streets and whispering parks of the Lou, for the whistling streets and highway life of NYC.